I´m ok I guess.
I fasted for 4 days and broke the fast last night with a binge, I´m so smart it scares me....
Today I ate waaay too much. 2 cheese sandwiches, a yogurt and some cereals.
I have to go to the gym if I don´t want to gain but I don´t feel like going, I want to stay home laying on my bed watching TV. I´m so lazy
I´m so tired of my weight, I want to get in the 50´s and then finally into the 40´s!
When I started the fast I weighted 67,5 kg and today I weight 62,2 kg so that´s something even if it was mostly water weight
I stayed in T´s house on Sunday and we had a lot of fun.
That´s until we watched a movie with a lot of naked girls, not porn, just a movie called Whore and well, we haven´t had sex in like 3 months so we where pretty horny haha. She kissed me and I started crying...I miss her so much, you have no idea =(
I´m very temted to get back together with her but I know she isn´t right for me so I have to fight and to not follow my impulses.
I´ll leave you some pics =)
God, I miss my bones
xx
EDIT: I went to the gym but I´ve just binged. I hate myself so much.........
Feel better about the binge(s). You can make it past this. Consider it a boost in your metabolism. =)
ResponderEliminarI LOVE the middle picture, the lights sort of look like pixie dust. We could all use a little magic. I'm proud of you for going to the gym, and I'm sure the binge won't put you back that much.
ResponderEliminarBinges are a boost in metabolism, like unbeautiful said, but they can also make you fat. A "good" binge is a morning one, followed by a busy day (of chores, the mall or the beach). A "bad" binge happens at night and is followed by sleep or watching the tv.
ResponderEliminarhey i just made a ne wblog and deleted my old one so know i am lonely as hell! check it out? help me out! XX
ResponderEliminarI'm glad you had some time wit T, whatever it may turn into. :)
ResponderEliminarDo you really live in Argentina? I am thinking of studying abroad there this summer!
Not to mention, one binge wouldn't undo an impressive 4 days of fasting since you know you have that in you. You are strong and you'll only get stronger, with the clarity you have to judge eating and romance.
ResponderEliminarIt takes time to get rid of the weight. I never had hip bones sticking out and I would love to have it that way.........
ResponderEliminarthose pictures are soo thinspiring. especially the last one.
ResponderEliminari am also 62kg, maybe we can motivate each other to drop the weight. omg, i would love to do a fast with you. you lasted 4 days? wow!
i am new to blogger, and currently have no followers, you think you could maybe ask some of your followers to check my blog out?
sorry to sound desparate, but i am kind of lonely. :(
xxxx jenny :)
four day fast...amazing...that small binge
ResponderEliminarwon't make a dent.
4 days fast? that's astonishing!
ResponderEliminari love the first pic! thank you for the thinspiration! ;)
Chau, beautiful.
ResponderEliminarDon't punish yourself, put it in a box and move on. You can't change it.
You are strong, you will win this fight against yourself.
xxx
Hey girl!
ResponderEliminarIt's just perfect you are able to fast for 4 days, you must be strong enough not to binge as well, I'm sure! Don't worry and don't feel desperate you'll achieve your goal!
Btw. if you feel like it, you might check my blog as well...
you're so strong, you fasted 3 days, thats amazing. you must be hungry ;(
ResponderEliminarBy the way, I really like your style, it's unique and I read your blog so often and I just wonder..if we could follow each other.. But even if your answer is “no” I’ll be still your reader ♥ I know what is ED because I had it some time ago. Now I'm fat. So please, follow me because I need some motivation to loose weight!
with love,
http://chocarome.blogspot.com/
I miss my bones, too. I hope you are doing okay. Miss you.
ResponderEliminarThank you for sharing your life and allowing others to be encouraged that they are not alone in their struggle. I've written on other struggles and addictions, as well as mental health and relationships, in my blog: opinionsofeye.blogspot.com Join me on occasion as we struggle together in this game of life...
ResponderEliminarmm gorgeous pics :) and im proud of ya for resisting temptation like that, you seem to know whats good for ua visa vi relationships and thats very admirable
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