martes, 18 de enero de 2011


Hi sweeties, how are you doing?

I´m ok I guess.
I fasted for 4 days and broke the fast last night with a binge, I´m so smart it scares me....
Today I ate waaay too much. 2 cheese sandwiches, a yogurt and some cereals.
I have to go to the gym if I don´t want to gain but I don´t feel like going, I want to stay home laying on my bed watching TV. I´m so lazy

I´m so tired of my weight, I want to get in the 50´s and then finally into the 40´s!
When I started the fast I weighted 67,5 kg and today I weight 62,2 kg so that´s something even if it was mostly water weight

I stayed in T´s house on Sunday and we had a lot of fun.
That´s until we watched a movie with a lot of naked girls, not porn, just a movie called Whore and well, we haven´t had sex in like 3 months so we where pretty horny haha. She kissed me and I started crying...I miss her so much, you have no idea =(
I´m very temted to get back together with her but I know she isn´t right for me so I have to fight and to not follow my impulses.

I´ll leave you some pics =)

God, I miss my bones


EDIT: I went to the gym but I´ve just binged. I hate myself so much.........

18 comentarios:

  1. Feel better about the binge(s). You can make it past this. Consider it a boost in your metabolism. =)

  2. I LOVE the middle picture, the lights sort of look like pixie dust. We could all use a little magic. I'm proud of you for going to the gym, and I'm sure the binge won't put you back that much.

  3. Binges are a boost in metabolism, like unbeautiful said, but they can also make you fat. A "good" binge is a morning one, followed by a busy day (of chores, the mall or the beach). A "bad" binge happens at night and is followed by sleep or watching the tv.

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  5. I'm glad you had some time wit T, whatever it may turn into. :)

    Do you really live in Argentina? I am thinking of studying abroad there this summer!

  6. Not to mention, one binge wouldn't undo an impressive 4 days of fasting since you know you have that in you. You are strong and you'll only get stronger, with the clarity you have to judge eating and romance.

  7. Hello girls I have returned to blogger after trying to lose weight the healthy way and developing a better mental health I gave up I threw it all away to become "Delicate!!" Threw all my hard work away so I could eat from one extreme to another, to get to my goals quicker!! As many of us do we give up and think it will be easier and quicker to try a stupid diet which you only end up binging and back to square one!!

    I am ashamed of my choices and want to continue down my path of being healthy!! I can not believe I nearly threw it all away!! I have decided to give it my all 100% and nothing less!! I will reach my GOALS but in a HEALTHY way!!

    I too want to look great in a Bikini, in that Little Party Dress, in those CK Jeans but I want to ROCK them without feeling GUILTY, without LYING to all those around me and to not be KILLING MYSELF in the process!! I want to look HOT in ULTIMATE HEALTH and HAPPINESS, I want to have AWESOME SELF ESTEEM and I want to ROCK CONFIDENCE!! I want to earn the JOY of achieving HEALTH - HAPPINESS - SELF ESTEEM and CONFIDENCE the right way not the wrong way!! I want this more than anything in LIFE and I am going to get it !! It is now or never, there is no looking back!! Please support me and I will return the favor

    I am putting this every where because I know I will influence at least one person out in this great big world to never give up and to keep trying!!

  8. It takes time to get rid of the weight. I never had hip bones sticking out and I would love to have it that way.........

  9. those pictures are soo thinspiring. especially the last one.
    i am also 62kg, maybe we can motivate each other to drop the weight. omg, i would love to do a fast with you. you lasted 4 days? wow!

    i am new to blogger, and currently have no followers, you think you could maybe ask some of your followers to check my blog out?
    sorry to sound desparate, but i am kind of lonely. :(
    xxxx jenny :)

  10. four day fast...amazing...that small binge
    won't make a dent.

  11. 4 days fast? that's astonishing!
    i love the first pic! thank you for the thinspiration! ;)

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  13. Chau, beautiful.

    Don't punish yourself, put it in a box and move on. You can't change it.

    You are strong, you will win this fight against yourself.


  14. Hey girl!
    It's just perfect you are able to fast for 4 days, you must be strong enough not to binge as well, I'm sure! Don't worry and don't feel desperate you'll achieve your goal!
    Btw. if you feel like it, you might check my blog as well...

  15. you're so strong, you fasted 3 days, thats amazing. you must be hungry ;(

    By the way, I really like your style, it's unique and I read your blog so often and I just wonder..if we could follow each other.. But even if your answer is “no” I’ll be still your reader ♥ I know what is ED because I had it some time ago. Now I'm fat. So please, follow me because I need some motivation to loose weight!

    with love,

  16. I miss my bones, too. I hope you are doing okay. Miss you.

  17. Thank you for sharing your life and allowing others to be encouraged that they are not alone in their struggle. I've written on other struggles and addictions, as well as mental health and relationships, in my blog: Join me on occasion as we struggle together in this game of life...

  18. mm gorgeous pics :) and im proud of ya for resisting temptation like that, you seem to know whats good for ua visa vi relationships and thats very admirable