It´s been a crapy day and it seems it´s going to be a crapy night.
No binging today, that´s good...yesterday 100 cal and today so far 0 BUT I have a birthday party.
I´m really not hungry so I don´t want to eat just to drink millions of calories but if I change my mind later about drinkin(2 glasses, maybe one of white wine and one of vodka with light soda,200 cal, not so much) I don´t want to end up completly wasted...well, I think I´m not drinkin and that´s it.
Today I went to a store to buy a shirt for the party....huge disaster. Nothing fit so I ended up coming home and crying like a baby for being so fat and useless. I managed not to cut, that´s good but I´m really depressed and I just wanna stay home watching TV, maybe smoking some weed or just sleep...
After the party I´m going to T´s house to sleep(we decided on staying in the "whatever"), then tomorrow the Gay Pride parade(idk if you guys call it like that in your cities)and later dancing. I´ll decide if I´m in the mood for clubing tomorrow,if it was for me I´d just slip my freaking wrists and put me out of my misery...
Not the happiest post haha
I really hope you all have amazing weekends =)
Thank you so much for the comments, they make feel so much better(L)
We call it the "Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras" ... I think that's a bit worse haha. It's mostly just straight, underage kids going to the city to get maggot and dress like whores.
ResponderEliminarI hate going to the shops and finding nothing fits. Always happens when I'm bra shopping. It's super frustrating.
Hope you're feeling better soon, love.
The party will be a good distraction. Get sloppy and have fun!
x
Awww pumpkin.. I know how that feels. I hate going shopping for that exact reason. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed.. It's just terrible. But this will change! You weight will come off and life will be so much easier.
ResponderEliminarI'm sending you my love sweetheart! :)